Chatting with my tutor proved to be a fruitful and heartening event since her approach was absolutely to help me do whatever I would best like to do, and not demand a meticulously structured plan for the project just yet.
So, what would I like to do? Something dance-related.
And what is dance essentially about? Control of the body, and if we are talking about classical ballet: perfect control of the body. Just like magic, we have a topic to base my research on: perfection. There are so many things that make this subject matter a perfect choice for me. First off, I am something of a perfectionist myself, and treating the issue of perfection as a research topic as well as a personal link to the project keeps me attached to it in a quirked sort of way where I'll probably get really frustrated but still strangely drawn to it. Having to deal with the fact that I want this work, which is about perfection to be perfect, adds another level to it - I believe.
I love photography and I love dance, and figuring out how to combine them into something more is a challenge that I'm more than willing to take. I have a history of practicing different types of dance, which allows me to experiment using myself as a model - logistically simpler than calling out for dancers compliant to volunteer helping out an indecisive and impulsive photo art student who most of the time has no idea what she's doing. This is not to say that I can't and won't use somebody else in the final pieces of work - as it happens, that tutor of mine knows a couple of professional ballet dancers, with whom I might be able to collaborate. A thrilling prospect to be sure.
Being more or less hooked in sports, as well as having competed and performed in various instances, I absolutely get that eternal thrive towards a flawless performance. How you can never actually achieve perfection, and how that will only drive you to work harder.
There is also the historical backstory which extends back to the Greek Classicism and the adoration and idolization of athletes in Ancien Greece. The extremely detailed, muscled and dynamic sculptures of heros and Gods from the Greek mythology are the ultimate beauty ideals still in the 21st century. That heritage of a concept of beauty goes through the history of Western art, and looking for traces of it in different eras is something that I'm completely enthralled with.
Then there's the practice of sport photography that follows certain rules - looking for the perfect shot of a specific event. How, when put next to each other, it's really the same photograph over and over again; and how still that same photograph of athletes manifesting their divine prowess in their area of expertise gets repeated time and again.
But that's enough rambling for a day.
I've already done one studio shoot with myself, and it was really about playing around and trying on things. I had a lot of fun - apart from the fact that apparently I've managed to pull my right buttock now and walking is a bit awkward.
|here's just some movement I dunno what to make of it|
|slightly surreal legs and some muscles|
I kind of like that blurriness and how it seems to remind us of photography's inability to represent movement; but also how it's kind of more truthful than spot-on sharp dance images where the exposure time is just fractions of a second.
And then I had to take and Photoshop a hipster-y self-portrait because that camera angle + lighting just makes everything look good.
|someone looks grumpy|